Pastor Paul Is The Reason I Suffered From Religious Trauma Syndrome

Specifically addressed to Pastor Paul Strosnider, the cult leader of Ephraim Baptist Church for the Deaf, this open letter is for him alone.

Paul Strosnider

These 16 years have passed since I met this white man, during which time I have also survived religious trauma syndrome. I was emotionally stirred up by Pastor Paul. He, who had already damaged my reputation as a scapegoat, made me realize how lonely I became and how much I turned out to be an embarrassing pariah in the Deaf community in Missouri, and it was my wake-up call!

In December 2006, I first met him when I was 14 years old. He’s also why I didn’t have many childhood friends at Missouri School for the Deaf since I was deeply indoctrinated by Paul’s cultic teachings every Sunday before I went back to the Deaf School. My mother made me go to Pastor Paul every Sunday morning. She insisted that I listen to Paul’s boring-ass sermons with my eyes open for 4 hours straight of the day, which I did! It didn’t matter how tired I felt in the morning or how much I wanted to close my eyes for a few seconds. My mother resented me for ignoring Pastor Paul and for being distracted.

Missouri School for the Deaf was my place of residence for the weeknights. Sometimes I stay there with my peers and residential staff on the weekends. But sometimes, on the weekends, I stayed with my mom in Saint Louis, Missouri. We lived 20 minutes from Florrisant Valley Community College or abbreviated as known as FVCC. We were also within 28 minutes of Ephraim Baptist Church For the Deaf. It’s about 8 minutes away between this church and the community college.

Okay. There is one interesting fact. Paul Strosnider had graduated from the Florrisant Valley Community College in 2001 after completing ASL courses. He started serving the Deaf community in the northwestern county of Saint Louis, Missouri as a missionary preacher.

There were a lot of White-Deaf people in his church. In his church, we had several small numbers of Deaf-black and Deaf-brown people, but I’ve seen a higher percentage of white members than black and Hispanic members. I was the only one who was the youngest member. Everyone in that church is older than me. They were in their 40’s, 50’s, 60’s, 70’s and over. The Deaf seniors go to that church every Sunday morning and Wednesday night, listening to Pastor Paul in American Sign Language.

Actually, his sign language is NOT very good. He always uses too much Signed Exact English, Pidgin Signed English, Total Communication, Simultaneous Communication (SimCom). That’s why he’s boring, so I fell asleep.

Usually, you are NOT supposed to speak with your mouth opening in front of Deaf people. Deaf people don’t want to read your lips. They want to see your facial expressions, body language, and more stylized in American Sign Language. Keep your mouth closed, do not use your voice, and don’t move too much with your lips. Just let your hands do the talk and let your body do the talk!

Especially in light of what happened to my mother in November 2015, Pastor Paul realized what I did wrong was disrespectful and misogynistic. In the house I grew up in, I attacked her aggressively with a kitchen knife. When Paul found out what I did, he was devastated, obviously. Neighbors made some calls to the cops on my ass at that time. Despite being handcuffed and arrested the same day in November 2015, I had to lay my knives on the grass before they arrived at the crime scene. I prevented myself from carrying on the attack within two or three minutes. But 30 minutes later, these two white cops let me go unpunished and free since I didn’t act violently towards them in their custody for the following few hours.

One of two cops took the knife as evidence in the car. I was sitting in the car in front of the police station in Riverview County. When the cop realized he had forgotten to pick up the knife at the station as we were in the car, he realized the knife was next to him in the empty drinking areas. He was so shocked that I never stabbed him. He said, “Wow! You didn’t even try to stab me. You’re a good man!” But that’s NOT what this is about. I was actually staring at the window of the car in front of me. I was so busy being angry at my mom. I was mad that she would call my cousin Jerome to beat me up. I shook my head in disagreement with the cop. It’s not because I’m a good person. It’s because I’m angry. I wrote the paper and said, “No, I don’t feel like stabbing anyone right now. My mother drove me nuts. I can’t stand her. She kept messin’ with my head. I’m tired of it! I think only of how she treated me, and that’s it!”

So they took care of the knife. I don’t want to do anything with it anymore. They released me from their custody, they uncuffed me. I was so devastatingly confused because I didn’t understand why they let me go unpunished. They said, “Your mom dropped the charges. I guess you can go anywhere, but you can’t come back home.”

They didn’t even put me in the hospital for psychiatry. They didn’t want to do anything with me. 

I realized that my mother decided to drop charges out of love for me. Still, my two biological uncles and three aunts told her that she shouldn’t have dropped the charges, although she made her choices. They told my mother that I should’ve been held responsible for what I did to her with the butcher knife I’d taken from the kitchen and used to attack her. 

My followers wouldn’t be reading this site today if the accusations against me hadn’t been dropped in the first place. I would’ve ended up in prison for a year or more. What’s worse, if someone in prison had heard about my stabbing incident, they would have beaten me to death. Most black male inmates in prison don’t want to share beds with rapists, wife-beaters, misogynists, or “I Killed My Mom” case, even if living with a mother under the same roof. According to the study findings, black male inmates in the prison who strongly respect their mothers would see me unfavorably as an emasculating problem and a male identity inferior who doesn’t reflect off their masculinity and male identity. I knew they wouldn’t have given a damn if I told them it was my mom’s fault. They’d think I could have handled my anger more maturely. In my culture, Black people have a high expectation of young men learning how to get their shit together no matter how terrible the situation is in their households. Young black men are supposed to keep their mouths shut and accept what they’re told to do without provoking a scene. Even if you were raised by a single mother on your own. 

The most effective way to deal with domestic violence is to leave as soon as possible instead of waiting for things to calm down. Moving into a sanctuary is also a good option if you have had repeated encounters with domestic violence. If I’d been in the jail, I would’ve been forcefully taught by these male inmates and would’ve ended up dead or in worse circumstances. They would’ve said that what happened between my mom and I wasn’t such a big deal. They’re almost certainly going to say, “It’s just a matter of common sense and getting your shit together,” with no more questions needed.

You could either admit that you’re mentally ill for assaulting your mother with a knife, or you could simply walk away without a single scratch. This is their motto.

By the time Pastor Paul received the phone call from my mother the same day, he had already spread the bad news with many others in the church without my consent! When he prayed in the morning, he most probably shared confidential information. Members of the church are also untrustworthy since they’re known to propagate stories and spreading gossip amongst the Saint Louis Deaf Community, which implies they may be willing to share information with non-members online or in GSLAD (deaf club). You should know that when my mental health deteriorated on that particular day, I wasn’t myself. But, as you can see, Pastor Paul, your poisonous teachings have seriously affected my sanity, especially in light of the criminal incident with my mother. Even if you didn’t know, your religious beliefs played a more significant role in my mental illness than you would have thought. Your spiritual toxicity is the root cause of the enormous division and social distancing that my mother and I’ve experienced over the years. This also prevents us from understanding each other as a source of happiness, construction, and family positivity. You did nothing to assist us in learning to love one another healthily. Your teaching methodology is inefficient! You’re a fucking liar!

When I grew up in my mother’s house, she did the strangest things that made no sense to me, which sometimes drove me nuts to the point of no return! I recalled that in the months leading up to the incident that occurred in November 2015, I erupted in rage to harm her, for example, by shoving her, kicking her, or angrily walking past her. No matter how many times my mother comes to ask for your help, the situation has NEVER gotten better! She put her confidence in you rather than me. She emotionally went off on you, telling you about all of her parenting difficulties as a single mother who raised me on her own from the age of twenty. Among the many things she didn’t like about me, she kept complaining about my sexuality, mental health, and other aspects of my personality. This is why you mistreated me: you don’t like what she told you about me, and you don’t want to help me anymore. You began ignoring me at a great distance in December 2015, whenever I needed to talk to you or beg for your help! You declined to pay me a visit to my shitty apartment. You quit teaching me how to operate a car. You were the only one who was willing to take the time I needed to learn how to drive a car. This is something no one else in my family is going to teach me!

As a result of the November 2015 incident, I assumed that you would be there for me in emotional support. But you NEVER were! You weren’t as emotionally approachable as I would have preferred at that time. I WAS SO DEVASTATINGLY DISAPPOINTED IN YOU!  You are a traitor to my belief in the symptoms of mental illness that I’ve already shown you. From that moment on, that’s when I started to despise you and despise you even more! During one of our dramatic arguments with you on my Sorenson Video Phone, you told me I cannot EVER forget. I’ve kindly informed you that I have stopped attending your church to avoid any conflict with my mother and other church members. Instead of expressing your appreciation for my decision, YOU already began by condemning me:

You’ll go to HELL if you don’t stop going to my church, I promise you!

I realized how angry you were because you couldn’t stop losing members of your cult that stopped listening to your teachings. You also said I was your favorite student who always puts his hand up in the air, asking thousands of questions about God and the Bible verses. It’s almost as if to say Lucifer was once God’s favorite angel, now the biggest disappointment. I take it I’m your biggest failure and your biggest disappointment. You mentioned that you enjoy answering my questions about God and so on. You claim to be the Hero of the Deaf Community of Saint Louis, and you see yourself as the celebrity of your church. To be fairly honest, I owe you nothing, not even your God, not even your ill-advised doctrines! You’re a motherfucking Republican born with white privilege! You are a Trump supporter who married a white woman in her 20s! You married her in your mid-fifties. You’re a little too old for Rachel!

Pastor Paul & his wife, Rachel Strosnider

Following Lilith’s tale (which does NOT appear in the Book of Genesis), Martha Anger alerted me on Facebook about pious white men who married underage girls since she is well-versed in Jewish history. Martha told me how Lilith accused Adam of a missionary sexual position on equal rights and how she returned to the Garden of Eden after a long absence. Adam had a second wife named Eve when Lilith came back. But when she discovered how young Eve was because she looked more like a kid than an adult, Lilith scolded Adam and God. This, Martha believed, was why pious white males read King James’ version while cherry-picking and twisting the laws to suit their needs. They feel that there is NO age limit on their marriage to underage women. They are free to do whatever they want with their heterosexual relationships. 

“There’s nothing in the Bible that says I can’t marry Rachel,” Pastor Paul told me after asking him about the age difference between the elderly-aged men and young adult women. 

PASTOR PAUL: “There is no rule that older men cannot marry younger ladies.” 

SHAWN: “How come you have a problem with gay men who are older than the age of consent?”

 I questioned him further. 

SHAWN: “When you referred to the older men and young men of the city of Sodom, you quoted the Bible in the Book of Genesis. On the other hand, it does not mention older men marrying younger women or underage women in the city of Sodom. So why is it considered inappropriate for twinks to be involved with sugar daddies? These young males are 18 years old and in their 20s. How is that different from straight people?”

For instance, Pastor Paul described the LGBT community as a “pedophilia movement” because of the age difference between younger men and older men. Really? Wow!  I categorically refused to agree to anything he said. No, that’s NOT exactly what the most extreme form of pedophilia looks like. To have a healthy relationship with an older man, the twinks would have to be 18 or in their early twenties, as I said a few minutes ago.

Nonetheless, from Martha’s viewpoint, God is at fault since Adam desired to rule over Eve while she was still a minor to avoid having to deal with Lilith’s complaints against gender equality. Lilith believed herself to be on an equal footing with Adam as a man and a woman, but Adam felt differently about equality. Martha also theorized that it was a flawed design and failure in Adam’s DNA that had been passed down through many generations of male descendants created by God. God had never taken the trouble to correct the conception of men and boys to respect women and girls in social contexts. God was supposed to have designed men’s DNA correctly to account for age differences, but he failed miserably! 

Martha also puts it this way“It doesn’t matter whether men are gay or not. Because of the nature of Adam’s sexual attraction and misconduct, you’re naturally drawn to underage boys and girls with whom the men have an age gap due to the nature of your malfunctioned DNA.” 

According to Christianity, conservative white men have trained and taught their women not to speak for themselves or be financially independent. According to the Bible, wives have to submit to their husbands, even if they express themselves freely to others. Lilith NEVER agreed with Adam’s commands, so she abandoned him in Eve’s care to exercise his own intelligence and free choice.

My grandma, Sandra Owens, was married to her ex-husband, LeAndre Owens, at 13 years old.

I saw you talking about me behind my back to Christopher Poole on the videophone. Meanwhile, I was in Chris’ apartment with his ex-wife, Katherine Virgil, for a brief time. That was in April 2018. You have always stood up for those who can hear, neither those who are deaf nor unable to receive a sound through their ears. You talked with Christopher Poole via video phone, “He, not his mother, is the source of most of the problems. It’s his fault. It’s him.” Look at what you said on the video phone, don’t you think? You didn’t take my side when I needed you the most!

Accordingly, you have blindly endorsed and backed up hearing people under-educated about the Deaf culture. When I told you the truth about my hearing mother, you never believed me, and you never have! Your ears were always open to everything she told you, and you were always paying attention to her misguided allegations. I know everything that happened between her and me. You weren’t there for these family violence incidents. You were NOWHERE near me when this happened! It’s impossible for you to fully grasp what is going on between my hearing family and me! You think my mom’s some kind of a sweetheart angel, don’t you? She is not, in fact, a fraudulent Christian; she likes to hide her wrongdoings behind the closed doors and walls of her residence. I’ve seen many poisonous choices of actions that you don’t know about my mother.

I found it so damn hilarious and amusing that you always condemned my frustrations and anger. You’re NEVER going to denounce her behavior if my mother keeps sleeping with non-Christians. These men she “dated” or “slept with” NEVER, not once, had shown their feelings or genuine love for her. They only cared about her body, and that’s it! They constantly took advantage of her! This is why she never tells you about her sex life! I’m “too disobedient,” a “troublemaker,” and a “bad son,” amongst other accusations you have made about me. You see who’s the hypocritical one now, don’t you? You always blame me for her personal problems around the house. You seem to think you know everything about who I am.

You consistently prioritize hearing people as being above those who are Deaf or physically disabled. Not surprisingly, you treat them like a charity case and inferiority. You are definitely not on the Deaf people’s side. You would prefer to be on the side of the able-bodied people who don’t know the Deaf culture instead of the Deaf people who want to be heard!  You’re both an ableist and an audist! Because of your ignorance and unwillingness to keep your mind open, so yes, I consider you a TOXICITY! You never said anything good about me behind my back while whispering secretly to people who may have or haven’t known me. You kept your distance at bay from me because you’re a fuckin’ coward!

You’re only concerned for your own safety because you think I’m a dangerous, violent human being. You’re TERRIFIED of angry black people who desperately need your comfort and help! You walk around with a big smile on your white privilege because you don’t like living next to gangs and thugs in your all-white suburban neighborhood. You NEVER share your gospels with African-American populations in Ferguson, Bellefontaine, Spanish Lake, Delmar Blvd, Grand Avenue, nor any other area of Saint Louis, Missouri! You wouldn’t come near my niggas in the ghettos. Why? You said you were beaten up by three niggas years before you met me. You were traumatized. You thought they’d attack you again! This is your white fragility!

I recall you saying that you weren’t even afraid to die for the glorification of Jesus Christ in front of strangers and foreigners on your mission trips. I think you made reference to me some time ago. You said you’re well-aware of the dangers you were taking when you chose to preach the gospel and carry out God’s mission in Africa, Iraq, Iran, Israel, Syria, or the Philippines. You probably have seen all in the world, man! What if you crossed paths with a violent terrorist or barbarian at some point in your life? I’m not sure if you already have, but you may have. I wasn’t with you when you were out of town. You may have met someone ten times more dangerous than me. I know that they’ve surpassed my violent behavior since they’re most likely trained than I am. I’m no match for them! Don’t say you’re afraid of me when you see the real one in front of you on your missionary visits! You stated that you have visited several prisons around the world. Where do you get the idea of being so afraid of black people in America, but you’re not fearful of foreigners speaking in a foreign language? Some dangerous foreigners are not as black as I am on your trips! How do you feel about Asians when you see the Ninja warrior that wants you dead? Indians? What, armed Arabian soldiers or something? There are thousands of races and ethnic groups with dark skin everywhere in the world!

Why are you so fuckin’ calm in the presence of these strangers who are as lethal as black people? Please explain to me the difference between these ones who vocally speak in a foreign language and African-Americans. Was it possible that you were about to be murdered by an Islamic State soldier, huh? What about Mexican cartels? It could’ve been anybody during your trips! We both knew that you would be willing to accept decapitation at the hands of ISIS terrorists since they assassinated Christians! Some non-Christians do harm to Christians as well as to Christians themselves. It can’t always be me that wants you dead!

In the United States, you don’t want to be murdered by black people because of gangs, thugs, or people who use illicit drugs. But you kept acting like I was much more trouble for you than anyone you met on your mission trips! Just because you were born in America doesn’t mean you have to stay away from black people like myself! I knew you were dealing with Israeli troops and dangerous people all over the world! You made it through, and you’re still alive! You made it seem as though I was about to stab you with the knife at the police station! When the cops came to arrest my nigga ass, I didn’t have the weapon on me at all! I had already been taken into custody! You had every opportunity to talk to me at the police station in Riverview, but you chose not to come! You were busily avoiding me when I was in the hands of police officers. It doesn’t make any DAMNING sense! They would’ve protected you since you’re WHITE! There’s no way I could stab you in front of the police! They had my knife in their possession at the time. What was I supposed to do without that knife? Three white cops versus against the one handcuffed nigga? Seriously, you still scared of me? C’mon! I thought you’d talk sense into me at the police station! If I was white, you’d be here!

And what’s more, I was poor and out of a job… I can’t just walk into the store and stealthily steal the knife in the eyes of the surveillance camera. If I tried, I’d be locked up! I already have so many adversaries against me anyways! I’m not even sure how to create a knife out of thin air. Do you believe I’m capable of pulling it off in a split second? Your WHITE FRAILTY manifests itself upon you! I can make an attempt, but it’s not going to work in split seconds! All you have to do is urge me to calm down in sign language. You’ve known me since December 2006!

As of November 2015, I am starting to see who you are for the very first time. I’ve never seen your worst version of yourself before, but now I do. I didn’t realize you were living a double lifestyle. My assumptions about you were correct, but I ain’t even sure what you’re hiding or how you feel about black people in America. There’s something you don’t want me to know! Even Iraqi or Syrian terrorists who want to see you dead for your Christian teachings. I sometimes wonder whether or not that you would’ve been less frightened of black people if you had grown up in a ghetto neighborhood where all races mingle and co-exist together. You’d have forgiven ’em and gone on with your life. I HATE when Christian martyrs declare, “If God wants me to die in front of Israel, then I’ll do it.” SERIOUSLY HATED THAT!  When you returned to the United States of America after touristic trips and missionary journeys, I knew that you don’t want to deal with Black people who are also historically violent, gang members, drug dealers, or worse. You would rather avoid where they live, but you would play nice to them at your own church if they choose to pay you a visit! You only want to die in front of the most beautiful sites you’ve ever seen, whether it’s the Great Pyramid of Giza in Egypt, the Great Wall of China, North Korea’s recreational activities, or the mosques of Iraq. I’m sorry, I don’t understand your tourist trips. You would happily die for Jesus Christ in a foreign language country, and that’s beyond me! Just because you have a noble cause or a righteous death doesn’t automatically qualify you to be one of God’s loyal martyrs. Your name is on the TO-DO LIST because you are the ATTENTION-SEEKER, that’s all!

That’s why I asked for your help and advice, but you asked my mother to tell me that you cannot be near me because of mental health problems. It was the first time you stopped visiting me due to my emotions being insulted by the situation. As a result, I’ve decided to punish you by refusing to attend your church services on Sunday mornings and Wednesday evenings. The fact that you’re a hypocritical liar is why I place my mistrust in the white patriarchs. White men always hold themselves in lofty religious positions like yourself! They always say exactly what the Black community wants to hear as a charlatan, and still gettin’ benefits of systematic racism. I also knew that you didn’t want to join the Black Lives Matter movement, so I became an activist for the anti-racist cause. I mean, if you happened to walk across a Black Person who says what they are: Muslims, Pagans, practicing Voodoo, or anything different from what you believe, you still would NOT be making friends with them; instead, you only advertise, invite and persuade them to come to your church AS A FIRST STEP.

Anything that has to do with the Islamic religion, paganism, or other spiritual beliefs openly practiced by Black Americans are accepted and approved by me. I respect them for who they are and their choices. Because they aren’t necessarily the official members of your cult that you helped establish the church for the Deaf people.


There’s nothing you can do to make them think differently. Don’t you realize how anti-Semitic you are? Your church has a deaf Jewish woman as a member, Betty, but it’s her choice whether or not to follow your teachings. Neither of the Jewish people in Saint Louis, Missouri, would want to join your cult nor accept what you preach about! Not even your poisonous beliefs! They’ve never needed to believe in Jesus Christ that you pray to, and there is NO reason for them to do so. I remembered a Jewish feminist who banned me on Facebook because she felt humiliated and insulted by my fascination with Illuminati conspiracy theory videos produced by racists and anti-Semitic people. She didn’t like what I was reading, so she decided to quit being friends with me. Sawyer Eevoc is her given name. Sawyer is the reason why I started learning about anti-Semitism topics and sensitive subjects that are linked with Sawyer’s identity.

I didn’t realize I was a part of the problem. Until NOW!

Took a pic with Sawyer

I belatedly understood how much I offended Sawyer by evoking conspiracy theories on Facebook with her. I wish I had never met you because you’re anti-Semitic, and I regretted that I let my mother make me go to your church in 2006. None of this mess would’ve happened between Sawyer and me on Facebook if it hadn’t been for you! She’s the one who’s been putting in the effort to help me get my shit together! She was a continuous source of inspiration for me because of her accurate information that I had never considered before. As someone unfamiliar with Jewish history and culture, I paid attention to what she had to say. You, white people, think you know everything about Jewish history because you read the King James Version, but you don’t know a sure thing about it at all! It doesn’t matter what you know. You will never be an expert in the Hebrew language or Jewish culture! Stop spreading misinformation about Jewish people! Only one complete and total stop! Whoever taught you this is also a liar, as are your religious elders in a Bible college. You, too, have been indoctrinated, spoon-fed, brainwashed, and gaslit! I’m devastatingly disappointed to no longer be friends with Sawyer in the wake of your actions! YOU!

I also stopped visiting your church because of the threats you made against me, which was why I made the decision. It was explained that if I stopped attending your church, you would cease teaching me how to drive a car. My mother’s elder siblings and sisters have refused to teach me since they cannot communicate with me using sign language themselves. Consequently, my mother requested you be available for me in ASL since you’re the only one who understands the language. You also have the white privilege and the power to say NO to my request. As a result, I was left alone and without alternatives. Although I paid out of pocket to take a driving lesson, I still need financial assistance. Paying someone to tell me how to drive a car is too expensive.

I hoped I could’ve spent more time in high school, but the school principal told me that the students could only take one driving lesson per year and couldn’t repeat the same course the following year. It’s causing me a lot of pain right now. I had to rely on you to teach me how to drive a car, yet at the same time, I’m baffled as to why my mother kept asking me to come to you and beg you to teach me all I needed to know. Why do you think you’re the only one in particular? Why do you feel the need to teach me everything? Why does it have to be you? Why? I wish you hadn’t taken me driving lessons because you still threatened me if I didn’t keep attending your religious cult. The use of religion as a form of power to blackmail or threaten deaf persons is strictly prohibited! You have no right to participate in this activity! You’re “cherry-picking” what you like and hate about me, and it’s driving me crazy! It doesn’t seem to be fair. This is not something I would do to my members if I were in your shoes! 

You are a greedy and discriminating white man because you married a white woman 20 years younger than you! You should increase your awareness of your white privilege! Those white patriarchal preachers who behave as though they have the right to be self-centered and assholes don’t get my respect! You’re a narcissist, which means you’re out of your mind! Because it’s openly manifesting itself in your conduct, I’m paying close attention to how you act around me. It all seems like you’d never done anything wrong. You think you can put yourself above me.

From November 2015 to the present, I have learned a great deal about white patriarchy. In the process of realizing this, I discovered that I had been spoon-fed, brainwashed, gaslit, indoctrinated, and blinded for 16 years by your teaching. I should’ve learned the ugly truth earlier. I didn’t figure it out till I was in my late twenties. As a result, I decided to abandon my Christian faith because I was unhappy. I now follow my African ancestors’ religion as a practicing pagan, yet I am also an agnostic. I understand that witchcraft is not demonic, at least not in the traditional sense. Christians created the devil only to control society and force people to attend church on Sundays. Christians only take pleasure in intimidating anybody if they cease to be Christians; they will perish in hell or be possessed by demons. No, I’m not going to believe it anymore.

Demons don’t have control over me. Since I began practicing witchcraft, I’ve had nothing but interesting experiences. I enjoyed my experiences. There has been no damage done to me. Only paranoid individuals and those who have been subjected to Christian indoctrination are susceptible to this occurrence. They are readily possessed as a result of this because they are WEAK as a result of this. They would have been fine on their own if they had been mentally and spiritually strong enough. There’s nothing that can come between you and your happiness if you quit being worried all of the time. Catholics, Protestants, Baptists, and Republicans are the most paranoid folks of all religious affiliations and groups. That’s why people think they see something weird. The fact that they’re weak and superstitious isn’t entirely my responsibility. I don’t want to be exposed to your teaching ever again!

You preach over and over again about putting your trust in God. In your teachings, you never mention how to deal with negative energies inside human faith. Our ancestors, brought to the USA as slaves, were punished for worshipping our African deities in captivity. Because we believe in African esoteric teachings. We’ve been prosecuting and penalized by racist white Christians who have enslaved us for 500 years in the United States of America! It is for this reason that I have returned to my African origins. I learned a great deal about myself and where I come from. Not your people, not your religion, not your conscious energy, but mine! Lastly, but certainly not least, I will no longer pay the tithe of 10% of my income on Sunday mornings! As a result, black people are still brainwashed and listening to white people for their financial knowledge. I don’t want to see you again!

In the back of the church building